So I’m sitting at Starbucks, looking at my schedule for the next 4 weeks. It makes me tired just seeing how much work and classes dominate my schedule. I suppose it’s not a bad thing, being so busy—I’m lucky to have a job, and working 12-15 hours a week isn’t that much compared to how hard other college students have to work. I’m lucky that my parents are supporting me through school, and that I have finally learned how it feels going to work, day after day. I just wished working didn’t make me so tired or irritable. This definitely wasn’t how I pictured ending my college career. Underlying all this is a slow panic about what I’m going to do after graduation. I should be finding internships to build my grad school application, I should be meeting with speech therapists and professors, building connections to get letters of recs. But I’m just too tired or lazy. I just gotta remember that everything will work out in the end, and this is just a small moment in my life.
I wish I had more time to work hard in my classes, and fully engage myself. How many people have the opportunity I do? To major in something challenging and interesting, something I love, and to have parents who support me (even if they do so grudgingly sometimes lol.)?
It’s all a matter of perspective, I suppose. I’m going to miss being in Kappa next year. If I wasn’t active this year, I think I would’ve been a lot more tired and unhappy. Being active brought a sense of purpose and perspective to everything I’m struggling through. That no matter how tired I am, someone somewhere out in the world has it ten times worse—understanding others’ struggles brings significance to my own troubles. It’s interesting that even though we are privileged to live in America and we don’t experience as many hardships as other people in developing nations do, we still intentionally subject ourselves to challenges like pledging. Is it pure masochism? Or is this what we have to do to find meaning to our struggles? No matter what our circumstance is, there will always be a struggle. Whether we are dirt poor or filthy rich. I think it’s in our human nature to be unhappy, and devote our lives to finding what it means to be truly happy.
Back to studying for UWP lol.
I’m so irritated and tired. I’m usually a pretty lenient person… but damn. People can be hella inconsiderate and selfish.
I love taking lambda pictures ❤🐑 (Taken with instagram)
Beautiful. (Taken with instagram)
My bf gave these to me for having the best boyfriend in the world……….😂 (Taken with instagram)
Animation Scenery Porn: The Illusionist (2010)
BEST ENJOYED WITH HEADPHONES
LEFT EAR: Mandarin version.
RIGHT EAR: English version.
oh dear lord.
Holy shit just listen put down that crack pipe and listen
Mother of sweet jesus
Language Nerd Instant Reblog
holy crap this is awesome!
From Sean while I’m studying for finals. 😃📖☕ (Taken with instagram)
